judgemental society

im so sick of being judged for everything i do in life like deciding to become a single mother, having a c section for medical reasons, or the fact i choose a sperm doner instead of adopting. stop being judgemental cunts everyone. and get on with your lives and never mind what any one else is doing unless of course it harms them or someone else.

23 april

im so utterly miserable in my new house because its got thin walls for a house i thought that wouldnt happen with a house i thought that only happened with flats so i can hear my neighbours laughing coughing sneezing vomiting singing shouting at each other through walls instead of going into the room to talk to each other i can hear all sorts of noises outside so i cant do my hobbies i cant play with my dogs in my back garden because the neighbours have their dogs out side 24 7 or if they dont they let them out as soon as they see me going out side so they bark and snarl and one dog jumped over the fence and attacked my dogs i tried to get a bigger fence the neighbour said not too because he was doing it he hasnt so far i try walking my dogs i cant get peace to do that either without somoene shouting abuse at me because they know im weeker than them and i cant stand up for myself i was never any good at that i go mute because of my autism and i cant fight because i have eds tyoe 3 and my arms legs and every thing is sore and week and even without the eds i doubt i would be much good at it any way.

23/4

i have noise sensory issues and i have eds type 3 which sometimes makes me fatigue and i cant sleep because of my noise sensory issues and every one being noisy and i would wear the head phones to block out the noise but i cant get comfortable with them on i cant win

walk with the dog

i went a walk with the dog 15 march at about 15 past 7 in the morning and we went through the woods and we saw three deer drinking and i didnt move because i wanted to watch them but didnt want to scare them so i stayed still and we were quite close to them then they spotted us ad they galloped away in the woods it was magical seeing them when you dont normaly see these animals i love animals

march 18

warning rant to get this off my chest you can read or not i hate when someone posts in aspie groups on the facebook and others about how lonely they are and they need friends and every one comments likes and is sympathetic and adds them as a friend and it turns out they have a husband kids family friends a job and still no one says at least you got your husband kids family friends whatever i post about how lonely i was and i have no job no friends no partner no family no children and all i got was some people have worse and at least you have your dogs and cats i dont understand humans at all and they were cheeky and rude why is it one rule for every one else in these groups and a different rule for me also hate when people post those pictures on facebook about how you should be there for you friends through the good times and bad and they are for center people but when its me i just get called a moody whiney bitch and to grow up and i dont need your negative energy and they fall out with you but someone else is depressed and they are there for them i dont understand humans at all why cant i have friendship and a partner like every one else why do i get treated differently from others when i havent acted any different form the other humans 😦

poem i wrote

Poem I wrote

Poem about autism
When someone laughs at me
I go mute
When someone says mean things to me
I go mute
When someone is aggressive to me
I go mute
When it’s noisy and crowded
I go mute
When I’m nervous
I go mute
But…
When someone laughs with me
I laugh with them
When someone says nice things to me
I say nice things back
When someone is calm around me
I am calm too
When it’s quiet and not busy
I feel relaxed
When I’m not nervous
I can just be me

i also put this on my tumblr my tumblr is http://acelovegood.tumblr.com/

things i hate and love

Things I hate
When people look at me then look at each other and smile like they know some secret
I want to know why they are secretly sharing some joke about me that I’m not allowed to know
When I’m laughed at
When people say to you about making friends they make it sound so easy and make it sound like you haven’t been trying to make friends every possible way you can think of since the age of three
People staring at me
Busy noisy crowdy places
Talking on the phone to the electric company or something like that
Being bullied
Being everyone’s doormat
Lots of people coming up at me at once
people trying to get me to donate to charities and people trying to ask what broadband I have when I don’t like strangers just coming up to me like that
Making eye contact I can’t even do it with my mum or dad
Hugs I couldn’t even hug my gran and I felt bad for that I didn’t feel bad for not hugging anyone else just my gran sorry gran
People trying to make me go to nights out and parties and once they have succeeded they make me dance and I hate dancing and I cannot dance and when I want to sit down they call me a party pooper and I hate going to these places so much that they don’t invite me any more and now I hate being left out and excluded from everything that my family does because my family is all I have and I’m the black sheep of the family so I hardly ever get invited to places now not at I ever did anyway but it still hurts being left out
Having no friends
My family never want to visit me because I only talk about my special interests which bore them and they hate everything I’m interested in and I hate everything they are interested in
Not having a husband or boyfriend I’m demisexual so it will never happen because I have never met any one that I have a strong bond with because I suck at trying to make friends and I’m just so repulsive to humans even online I can’t make a single friend
Having no family but I’m trying ivf soon so hopefully that will change soon
Things I love
My pets
Animals
Reading
Anime
Video games
Movies
Comedy
Photography
Nature and being outdoors

Drawing

big bang theory challenge

1 – Have you been watching The Big Bang Theory from the start? no i started with season 4 episode with amy having a girls night with penny and Bernadette and the guys going to the cinema

2 – What is your favorite thing about The Big Bang Theory? its funny and has two characters i can relate to

3 – Who is your favorite character? sheldon and amy they have autism like me and i am almost exactly like them even though people dont like saying they have it because they dont like lables i think they do and its nice having characters you can relate to and that have the same thing as you because its kinda rare that happens well with me any way because i dont watch a lot of tv

4 – Who is your least favorite character? not sure i love every body i guess one of the ones that is only in for one episode then you never see again

5 – What has been your favorite episode of The Big Bang Theory? the first one i watched that got me into it

meme thing 10 to 1 Challenge

10 to 1 Challenge
10 Facts about Yourself
1. I love animals and have five pets three are dogs and two are cats
2. I love drawing
3.i love photography
4. I’m autistic and have ehlers danlos syndrome type three and had a brain injury and various other health issues
5. I am an otaku I love anime and video games and jpop
6. I love poetry and write poems sometimes but not very good at it
7. Used to love writing stories but since having brain injury not very good at putting ideas and thoughts into words
8. Love going hillwalking with my dogs
9. I love practising Martial arts and will do karate wing chun boxing and jeet kun do
10. I still have teddies lol
9 Favourite Songs
1. Win in the end teen wolf sound track
2. War child blondie
3. Tenshi ni fureta yo k-on song
4. A nightingale sang in Berkeley square
5. Lita ford hell raiser
6. Tarja phantom of the opera
7. Jackie chan police story theme
8. Final fantasy song Maria and Draco
9. Suteki da ne final fantasy song
8 Places You’d Love to Go to
1. Japan
2. America I already been but would love to go again
3. Wales
4. Ireland
5. Lapland
6. China
7. Thailand
8. India
7 Things You Couldn’t Live Without
1. My pets and all animals
2. Books
3. Video games
4. My old video tapes most are Disney
5. Internet as I live in village that’s so tiny and middle of no where and I don’t drive that I need it for shopping and stuff
6. My senses like seeing and hearing I know people who do that every day and I commend them for it but I couldn’t as I can’t talk to humans or anything and being dependent on someone esp if I didnt get on with them scares me
7. Drawing
6 People Who Inspire You
1. Gran
2. Female scientists and inventors
3. Male scientists and inventors
4. Disabled people
5. Animals
6. Artists I don’t know a lot of humans so that’s why these answers aren’t very good
5 Favourite Girls Names
1. Robyn
2. Caitlyn
3. Amy
4. Bryony
5. Lisa
4 Favourite Boys Names
1. Cody
2. Emmett
3. Riley
4. Logan
3 Things You Like About Yourself
1. I can draw pretty good
2. I’m good with animals
3. I’m loyal
2 Things You’re Looking Forward To
1. Going to London in July for comic con I don’t like going to busy crowd places this is first time going I had to beg my brother to come with me but I don’t think he is keen on going lol
2. Having a family so I can travel the world with them and have adventures
1 Quote You Live By
1. Things could always be worse

june 29

A is for awareness that I’m always trying to raise
U is for understanding that I was born this way
T is for time and patience that I may need
I is for interest for researching about me
S is for strength, for Autism isn’t weak
M is for more acceptance that we seek

poem from facebook page https://www.facebook.com/DonnaWoodsAutismPoems

i liked this poem i have autism